the infinite colours of Love

sometimes you have to cross distances and difficulties to learn very basic emotions and the very basic nuances of love

not the kind of love for a job or for a partner

the kind of love you couldn't even imagine

the sincere love for a human being, the learning how to be present in their life tiptoeing silently, but letting them know that you are there

making a difference without any control

just because of that sincere love you developed towards them

I cannot tell you into details how this happened, but what I can tell you is that yesterday I had a magic moment and my heart exploded of a Love I did not even know before

farewell bittersweet unfairness

I stopped sleeping in ur big sweater

I started playing the game where I pretend that we never met and, sadly enough, it works

I stopped smiling when I recall a day we spent together

I started looking around

I stopped writing, thinking, waiting for you

or maybe

I started a different way of doing the very same things

because in the end I am still here

but parts of me no longer are

those parts that belonged to you

left already to some new place

farewell bittersweet unfairness.

per sempre.

alla fine avevo solo paura di dirlo

era come ammettere tutte quelle paure che facevano male anche solo al pensiero

prendere contatto con tutto quel passato

con tutto quello che c'è stato, che ha significato, che ha insegnato

tu

sorrido pensando che l'unico modo per capire determinate cose era passando attraverso tutto questo

non ci saranno mai le parole necessarie per dirti che mi hai salvato in tanti di quei momenti di cui non saprai nemmeno l'esistenza

ti porto dentro ogni cosa

e l'unica certezza è che questo sarà per sempre.

those perfect unexpected seconds

after a long day I was so lucky I got a ride home

just what I needed and I would have never dared to ask

I was so lucky to have the heater on in the seat all around me, like a hug

I was so lucky that I asked my friend to put on "whatever u feel like" music

and the notes which started playing were these

<3

I was so lucky I got a sincere message asking "how are u"

and the best feeling of it was that I know the person really cared about my answer

I was so lucky I could feel all this

despite all the times I wished I did not have to feel anything anymore


and today few important things happened, nothing certain yet but... fingers crossed

could this be a turning point where a lot of those pieces of the puzzle that everyone said "why are u even trying"

come together drawing a nice picture?

well, now it's too late and stupid anyways not to try a little more

so I will

and u'll see.

return to innocence

if u can dream it, u can do it

dog days are over the rainbow

Today I went like almost every wednesday to Crissy Field

I enjoy walking there after my day at the clinic and stare at the Golden Gate

I enjoy the sand, some days warm under my feet, most of the days cold and windy but beautifully sunny

I like to have my step sinking in the sand, it feels a little bit like walking on the moon (the way I'd imagine it)

I enjoy the dogs, happily running around, into the waters careless of the temperature

some very elegant dogs, gracefully making the landscape more interesting

some very ugly dogs, making me laugh out loud with their goofy looks and walks, making the landscape more adorable

and the same thoughts fit the owners as well

a couple of dogs jumped all over me, my bag and my books

I have sand everywhere now in my room

totally worth it

I always write a message on the sand

a little greeting, a little thought, a song

it's like a modern version of a message in a bottle and thanks to technology it does travel far away very fast and I like to think of the smile on somebody's face when they open the bottle..

today everything felt different

and awkwardly great.

here some of the last shots... since it's true that I stopped posting pics on flick and here.. and some of my friends cannot enjoy them on instagram and they asked me to "come back"

dog days are over

my sis and I writing to each other on different beaches

imagine (golden gate covered in fog)

love does not suck. u suck.

love is short
forgetting so long.