and u won't know

I thought so many times to show up at ur door just to let u know that I exist

to respect others's decision I did not come to meet u

today u left for good

and u won't know

u died alone in a cold apartment, in the loneliness u created by urself ur whole life, pushing away all those who did not think the way u did

I am not sure if I am sad more about the way u passed away or the way u lived

the point is that not only u won't know

I also will never know.



may ur soul rest in peace.