per sempre.

alla fine avevo solo paura di dirlo

era come ammettere tutte quelle paure che facevano male anche solo al pensiero

prendere contatto con tutto quel passato

con tutto quello che c'è stato, che ha significato, che ha insegnato

tu

sorrido pensando che l'unico modo per capire determinate cose era passando attraverso tutto questo

non ci saranno mai le parole necessarie per dirti che mi hai salvato in tanti di quei momenti di cui non saprai nemmeno l'esistenza

ti porto dentro ogni cosa

e l'unica certezza è che questo sarà per sempre.

those perfect unexpected seconds

after a long day I was so lucky I got a ride home

just what I needed and I would have never dared to ask

I was so lucky to have the heater on in the seat all around me, like a hug

I was so lucky that I asked my friend to put on "whatever u feel like" music

and the notes which started playing were these

<3

I was so lucky I got a sincere message asking "how are u"

and the best feeling of it was that I know the person really cared about my answer

I was so lucky I could feel all this

despite all the times I wished I did not have to feel anything anymore


and today few important things happened, nothing certain yet but... fingers crossed

could this be a turning point where a lot of those pieces of the puzzle that everyone said "why are u even trying"

come together drawing a nice picture?

well, now it's too late and stupid anyways not to try a little more

so I will

and u'll see.